Looking Beyond The Outside

So many times, we are quick to judge people,

• By the way they look
• By the way they act
• By their beliefs
• By their religion
• By ANYTHING....

Yet we wont look at peoples hearts... The MTV Show If You Really Knew Me has been one of my favorites this season. I have tissues ready every time I watch it, because its a show that shows the realness that I strive for in my life. No one is perfect... POINT BLANK. If You Really Knew Me showed me that people who we "think" have a wonderful life, may not. Sometimes I wonder if after challenge day things go back to being the same.

We need to get to the point in our lives when we stop lying to ourselves and start accepting who we are. It's not an easy things.

I struggled with my weight. I live in a world where being plus size is not considered cute nor beautiful. Not until I realized that, I am the way that I am, and I have the right to change it... Nothing was going to change. I have been working hard for the past Seven weeks and now I see change in myself. But not until I took a different look at it, and looked beyond the outside of my body, did I see my true motive. I have the chance right now, while I am young to get to a body weight that will make me happy.

After hearing about the college freshman who killed himself, because his roommate videoed him having sex with a guy, I had to do a quick reality check on myself. Since I believe in Jesus Christ and believe what is written in the Bible, I don't agree with homosexuality. But they are people just like we are... Their feeling get hurt just like our feelings get hurt. THEY ARE PEOPLE. We have things to say about them or people who are different than us... but when you look in yourself... I'm sure there is something that you don't like about yourself, but there is something even better inside of you that makes up for what you don't like. We have to start looking beyond the outside.

If you were to judge me from the outside, you would see my scars, but yet you don't know the story behind my scars. You don't know how many days I hated going to Wal-mart because people would look and stare at me. You don't know that I would go in the bathroom and never turn the light on, because I didn't want to see myself. You don't know that I never wanted to wear make-up because doctors told me from a young age that I need to wear makeup to cover up my scars. You don't know how many times people look at my scars instead of looking me in the eyes. Not until college, did I embrace my scars and love them and smile about them. Now I am able to speak to kids who have scars and they know I know how they feel. Now I am able to see that God choose me because he knew that I could handle it.

Not Until you look beyond the outside... will you see the real person.



My chains may be rusty, but they are strong enough to hold me together.